This week’s video is a “write with me” video (complete with a ‘heart attack’ moment at the end so don’t have your volume up too loud, lol).
I haven’t been recording as much footage these days because I seem to have worked myself into a routine/rut. I wake up. I go to work. I watch some YouTube videos. I make dinner. I write. Bedtime. Then I do it all over again. It’s not very exciting to me, so I assume it won’t be exciting for anyone else either. Who would want to see that?
So, while I figure out how to get myself out of this rut, I’ll probably be posting videos like this. Little experiments to see what kind of content (hopefully writing-related content) I can make.
So you remember how I told myself that I’d continually post vlogs every week? And then I forgot but I kept vlogging so now I’m on #24 but I haven’t posted any in a long time so really they’re just for me since they’re not made “public” on YouTube? You don’t? Well, that happened.
Anyway, here’s a mini-vlog for this week:
I was hoping to get a new camera for the holidays, but it didn’t work out. There was just too much adulting to do so I’m still shooting with my cell phone. It’s not the best phone but it gets the job done. For the most part. LOL
*raises coffee mug*
Here’s to “hopefully not forgetting to post next week!”
I could just insert a pointed joke about Microsoft Outlook, but instead I’m just going to forewarn you that I made a mistake in the captions at the 4:24 mark. Instead of Overlook Hotel, I call it Outlook Hotel. I blame the allergy meds, but lack of sleep might have been the culprit, lol.
Last week was… a week. I was going to stop the vlogging process at mid-Friday and leave it at that but, for some reason, I felt compelled to explain myself. I don’t owe it to anyone. Maybe it was because I wanted to be honest. Not everything is always so hunky-dory and happy all the time.
Anyway, here is this.
I promise that I’ll be much better company next week (though, I probably shouldn’t be making promises like that). Husbando has been so patient with me and he’s been my rock while everything else felt unsteady.
I’ve been brainstorming some ideas I want to write on, because it’s been too long since I’ve put pen to paper (figuratively and literally). Our fearless leader for our Saturday AM Roundtable Group once asked me if I felt compelled to write and what happens when I don’t write. My response: I’m miserable.
Husbando and I had a successful first week of NaNoWriMo. The week wasn’t without its struggles though. While Husbando is struggling with a few character motivations, I have been struggling with my own motivation for the story.
I love my characters and both critique groups seem excited about the story (which is great). I think, though, this might not be my future series. I can see this as merely a standalone (sub)urban dark fantasy.
I’ve been dabbling in bookbinding and papermaking as well. I love being crafty so this is a great way to incorporate my love of books into my crafty side as well.
Last week was rough. I was going through some personal stuff at the beginning of the week, which (I assumed) would set the tone for the rest of the week. But–as it turns out–I have a great support system. With Husbando, Teddy, and some close friends, I was able to salvage the week after all.
Doing a vlog is a weird thing. For the past few weeks, I was busy enough that I spend a chunk of the weekend editing my vlog instead of working on it a little each night. What I’ve realized is that I often forget a lot about what has happened at the beginning of the week. Even important things. For example, how awful the start of my week was.
Anyway, here’s last Sunday’s vlog!
Next Sunday’s vlog is going to be full of writing stuff since it is the week before NaNo 2021!
So I’m a boring human being and I do absolutely nothing all day, which is why it makes no sense why I’ve been dabbling in vlogging.
And yet, I find it therapeutic.
It’s like journaling. I get to record the things going on in my life for posterity. I also get to play in a new medium. As of right now, I’m still just using my “not so up-to-date” smartphone and the default video editor that came with Windows, so it’s not fancy.
I get over the frustration of older technology by telling myself that this is some sort of trial or that I’m “paying my dues” and will eventually level up. Then I can get a better camera (and not a smartphone that consistently tries to refocus, even though it was already focused) and a video editing program (and not one which offers me the use of 3D emojis, only to tell me that none of them are actually available to me. WHY OFFER IT THEN?!).
*clears my throat*
I like to think I’m getting better.
My friend and I have been trading vlogs each week. We’ve been playing with our formats and layouts, testing what types of vlogs we want to make. I’ve decided I like the format of weekly vlogs. Sometimes they all of the footage is themed. Most of the time, it is a log of the interesting things I happen upon each day. They always cover Sunday through Saturday, starting with errand day and ending with cozy critique days.
It’s been ten straight weeks of vlogs so far and I still like it, which is promising!
Here is my latest:
We’ll see how the content changes in November when NaNoWriMo starts. I may try my hand at a few “write with me” style videos.
Having lived through it, the past week feels hectic, but it probably doesn’t appear hectic from the outside. Here at The DeVore Business and Industrial Park, we’ve been slowly decorating our house in fall and Halloween décor. Since we probably won’t get trick-or-treaters again this year, we haven’t really decorated our front porch.
Last year, I was disappointed we couldn’t do the midnight write-in on October 31st, at our local diner. This year most of the restaurants in town are open again, but–for obvious reasons–they have cut back their hours. So no midnight write-in again this year. Having a virtual option is nice but it’s not the same. The turnout last year was lackluster and we were all pretty Zoom-fatigued at that point.
My project for this year has changed a few times already. I want to choose something I’ll be able to market. The first book in a series, hopefully. We shall see.
My indecision probably stems from my insecurities about publication. Part of me just wants to write what I want. Don’t write to market. Just write what I would want to read. The problem, however, is I really need to focus on my writing goals which–at this point–are twofold:
Write something which will make people laugh and make people smile.
Eventually make enough money from my writing, that Husbando doesn’t have to work… which will make him smile. LOL
These two things don’t have to be mutually exclusive. I should be able to write something that makes people smile and can make me money. However, my genre of choice would be “weird fiction” and that’s not super marketable. So I’m having to compromise on genre to meet these goals.
Luckily, I like writing in different genres. I just need to narrow my focus on the genre that would make me happy and hope that I write well enough to meet these two goals.
WE SHALL SEE
Why can’t writing be the hardest part about writing?
I love being able to watch a new show and feel inspired to write. Not necessarily inspired to write something similar to the show. Just something. Create something. When there’s a show that is so creative and so inspired and it forces me to go, “Why didn’t I think of that?!”
That is the best feeling.
This past week, I finished watching both Midnight Mass and Only Murders in the Building. I loved both and they both left me with that same feeling. If you feel like something incredibly atmospheric, thought-provoking, and dark, I highly suggest Midnight Mass. If you love true crime podcasts, watching things a little off-beat, and feel like you want to be a part of something bigger, I suggest Only Murders in the Building.
Only Murders in the Building made me feel pangs in my heart, I didn’t realize were there. I think the line I want to eventually speak (even now) is “It’s been the most alive I’ve felt in a decade.” I don’t want to sound morose. I’m complacent but not unhappy. I’m finding ways to try new things. I do feel alive. But I know that I will eventually fall into another rut. And I hope that I happen upon something that makes that line ring true for me too.
Aaaanyway, I hope you find something that makes you feel that inspired as well. So it’s back to the word mines for me. It’s a little early for Preptober, but I’m really excited for NaNoWriMo this year. I hope I can come up with something amazing.